Hari ni, Yaya dapat ceramah mengenai kerjaya yang sesuai dengan Yaya masa medical check-up.. Ceramah tu berlaku secara tidak langsung, tapi berguna sangat... Saranan kerjaya tu berdasarkan first impression doktor tu terhadap aku n pengalaman beliau belajar...
Mula2 doktor tersebut bertanya mengenai universiti dan jurusanku.. Um, Asasi Sains Hayat.. Kemudian beliau bertanya mengenai cita2ku.. Doktor.. Then, beliau bertanya, "sape suruh jadi doktor, parents ke sendiri?" Mula2 memang parents yang suruh,tp kemudiannya, jd sendiri punye.. Next beliau bertanya lagi "kenapa nak jadi doktor?" aku terkelu... x tau nak jawab ape.. bg aku, aku nak jadi doktor coz aku suka, minat.. Tu bleh jadi jawapan ke?.. Ended kat situ..
After several minutes, she asked me, "kenal x Encik Haron?" kenal,(beliau ialah bapa kepada Nazlia, teman sepermainan masa muda2 dulu).. Pastu beliau memanggil Encik Haron, she asked him whether he know me since i was young... He looked at me.. Aw man, i being scanned!! i felt like i'm transparent! People in that room can look through me n get into my head.. I don't have the guts to lift my face up.. Then after he scanned me, he said, "dia ada masalah ni". What!! then he continued "Die pikir banyak sangat ni.. ada dua pilihan kan? satu matrik, satu UM.."
The doctor thinks i am depressed.. She said that i am toooo quiet.. I am not responding to her question the way normal person did.. I am not normal? She actually wanted to put me under mental assessment!! What? me? mentally unstable? no!!! The truth is, i am toooooo shy.. Can't she tell by my body laguage, the way i spontaneously sketch circles with my finger on my file when all of them looked at me? The way i cannot keep eye contact? Seriously, i have to get rid of the shyness..
Then, the doctor said, kalau macam ni, jangan ambik medic.. What!!? nanti awak akan nampak orang dr jurusan lain belajar rilek jer.. Tp budak2 medic, susah... Sy dulu, rasa susah sangat.. rasa menyesal pun ada...
Her words make me think twice... First time, ada orang yg x menggalakkan jurusan medic pd aku...
Then Encik Haron cakap, xyah jadi doktor la, jadi angkasawan... Boleh naik roket... I laughed... doktor tu kemudiannye cakap, "die sesuai untuk research.. Kalau nak jadi doktor jugak, boleh jd pathology, anesthetic, radiologist.. Ha'ah, jd pathology, bedah orang mati, anethetic, duduk dalam bilik bedah, kasi org tidur, radiologist, kat x-ray.." tu lah cadangan kerjaya yg sesuai untuk sifatku... En Haron then cakap, "nak jadi doktor kene tidur dgn mayat dulu! berani ke?" then he leave the room.. What? is that true? seram gak, dengar...
Overall, apa yg Yaya dapat masa conversation yg singkat tu, ialah, malu biar berpada-pada... jangan extreme sangat sifat malu tu smpai pendapat sendiri pun x dpt nak voice out.. pesanku pd diriku, berubahlah ke arah yang lebih baik.. sifat malu yg melampau tu akan meyulitkan proses membiasakan diri di tempat baru... Berubahlah Fatin Nur Nadia... Yakin pada diri, dan pasti ada tempat untuk anda! Ha, lagi satu pesanan doktor tu pdku, "kalau belajar nanti, niat kene betul... Niat nak tengok ciptaan allah.. niat nak bantu makhluk allah."
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